Sooo me and my boyfriend broke up the other day we've been going out for almost 7 months.....i don't think he knows how much he meant to me....he meant so much to me and i don't think he knows how much the fact the we broke up hurt me....because i seemed so calm after it happened....afterwards it didn't set in my mind that it happened...I'm not sure if it hit me yet ..i don't think it has and when it does its going to hurt more than ever and I'm going to break...i don't know what I'm going to do. We broke up for a good reason but i can't help but thinking that he wanted to say something and he didn't....i wished he did...i miss him already..I'm not going to be the same for a while i don't think people understand that....making me try to think of something else isn't good for me, i need to let it out....and for some reason i just can't and it's not good that i can't just cry because i know i want to...but somethings holding me back I know this was for the best but .....i don't know i wish i could talk to him... for some reason at the moment i don't think i can...i don't know what I'd say and it's killing me i really don't know what to do anymore...i think i need more help than usual; a good friend that'll hug me and tell me every things going to be alright but listen to me when i need someone to just be there so i can let out all my thoughts....i need someone that'll be here....forever...not somebody who i tend to get in lots of fights with or somebody who wouldn't lecture me but advise me help me someone who will always be there and can always be there.....I'm pretty sure i have a couple of friends like that and i love them for the fact that they are always there because right now i need them more then ever and i don't know if the really know how much i need them; i hope they do =[