its not much to talk about.

What can I possibly say anymore? I guess everything is finally coming together... finally. I'm getting more use to everything finally. I'm trying my best, I really am but I don't know. I feel like one half of me is still the way I have been for a long time. I can't get it to go away, its like it will always be a part of me. It'll be here to steal something from me even if its just something small. It hasn't been able to in a long time however. And I'm finally feeling like something different is coming, something good, something that'll finally change things. But I have that feeling that that one thing is missing and its going to be missing for a while. That other half of me, its gone for the time being. The half that was always happy, the half that felt like she had everything she could've ever asked for; anything.... love, friendship, fun, happiness. The feeling when you have all those things mixed together plus more. That feeling, isn't gonna come around anytime soon. I would give anything for it but I need to straighten out. I need to learn to think my words through and focus on where I wanna be and not where I'm going. I want to prove something to everyone. I need to. I need to prove that I can do better than I've been doing and that nothing minor and or major will stop me for being what I want and getting to where I want to get. I will disappoint you, I am everything I wish I wasn't and nothing I say I am. But I try my best. I do as I'm told and follow the rules... most of the time. I've realized that  it’s impossible to forget those few people who make you wish you could rewind life & do it all over again... because they are the most important people in your life; the most influential. They change everything, including who you were and what you become. They create you and no matter what, you're gonna be great and who do you have to thank? The people that you wish would stay forever, the people that you would hold so close if you didn't have to let them go. The people that come back into your life, even for a short time and when you see them walking toward you, you can't help but smile and think of everything that once was and everything that could be. Not only that, these people make you feel different, they make you feel like you're apart of something; something great, something wonderful, something marvelous. These people..... don't even let them go, never ever lose them no matter where they end up and you end up going. They'll always be a part of you.