If I don't write.... most of the time that means I've had a good day. The last couple days, well thats been the case.. so I haven't written because I didn't have anything to write about. I didn't have any thoughts I needed to jam out of my head for once. It feels good.. really good.. to be happy for a little while in my life. I do have to say that today bothered me a lot though... I wasn't unhappy though.. between the date that kept jumping at me and just stupid people I just got really ticked off. I was thinking.... maybe I'll try softball... possibly? Probably not though.. its just a thought. Something new not to be good at I guess. Is it bad that I've had these sudden urges to be a little crazy? To take that sip of the devils sweetest drinks that our parents tell us not to try? Is it bad I honestly wanna just break some rules and not give a damn if I get caught?Yeap.. thats probably bad but what the hell? I just wish that this could work out... god damn I'm such a horrible liar most of the time.... then again I don't intentionally lie that often. I also don't speak when I should a lot.. if somethings bothering me... most of the time I won't say a word unless I grab that last minute ounce of courage.. which happens rarely. I figured out that for the most part I just wanna go out and raise hell with my friends... I wanna do all the things I wanna do and enjoy them to the fullest. These last two days have opened my eyes and I've loved almost every second of them but what can I say... tomorrows a new day and all I wanna do is get through it.