Monday, October 12, 2009

All I'm good for.


Me? I'm good for one thing. Listening. Thats all I ever do. I feel like no one else ever does the listening. I listen to everyone else's problems but no one listens to mine... no one wonders if I'm okay... no one asks how every thing's going with me. Maybe thats my fault.... I choose not to tell anyone anymore because I don't believe anyone actually cares. Having to carry around every emotion, every thought, and then carry around everyone else's problems on top of mine just really is killing me. I feel like I'm not wanted around by many people anymore.... I feel like all's I'm good for is so people can dump their crap on me sometimes.... and some people... thats all they every do. They only talk to me when they have a problem, or thats all I ever hear from them. I don't care anymore, I can't stand it. I sit here trying to figure out why I feel the way I do half the time.... why I constantly feel like a failure or why I constantly think I'll never be good enough and that every things always my fault. But then I have to worry about everyone else. And its killing me.... I don't know how to deal with anything. I'm sick of having to sit home... sometimes I just wanna go.... I'm not even excited for tomorrow.... I'm not excited for my birthday at all.
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Jesse said...

Sorry that you feel that way Kait. Not gonna lie I can say the same. Mainly cause Im a christain people write me off. Im seen as a cool kid but OVER THERE. Not really here. And since I am a believer people come to me with problems. i know theology and im good with advice but no one wants to listen to me! Im over here dying. Like just this past week i was going through hell and no one f**king cared. I know how it feels and i hope i can help change that as time passes. Your worth as a human is pricless. I believe that about every persons. Yet again people are so bogged down by circumstances and others hurting them that they feel as if there value is lost. But nothing can be futher from the truth and trust me I'm a kid who knows about mans sin pretty well, despite that i study theology a lot. You and every other person has value.

November 29, 2009 at 9:29 PM

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