Things are getting better for now. Everything is becoming easier but we know that never lasts does it? You think some old friends would understand.. they don't they're to wrapped up in their new found lives to give a shit anymore. Thats the one thing I can always promise for people... no matter how disgusted I get with you or how far we've grown apart. I will never throw them to the curve... I know who they were to me and so if they ever need me... for some reason I'll always find myself there for them. I can't say the same for them. These days are different.. people aren't the same people they promised they always would be. And I'm done trying to figure out why. I know that the people that haven't left will be here.. maybe. I haven't managed to achieve the happiness I once had... not in long time. But I've managed to live through it... and if I can then anyone can. I could never understand why people keep going back to the people that always hurt them. Although you love them.. is the pain really worth it? And if you love them then why do you continuously hurt each other anyways? I do however understand why they go back I suppose. Once you've loved someone or had something good with someone.. you constantly find yourself wanting it all the time when it's gone... which can cause problems sometimes. Love is something you will never forget and something you will always want. If you can live without it for while... then you've really done something. It's probably one of the most difficult things I've ever done. Well... maybe thats just me though. Anyone else understand that?