It's been a long time since I've cared enough about someone enough to get nervous when I'm around them. Its really weird.... I guess. I don't really know whats going on.. or what to do. Everyone tells me it's so easy... but its not.... not this time at least. 

I love how I never feel a lone anymore... I never feel how I use to. I have all the friends I want and then some. I have fun and I enjoy everyday. Don't get me wrong life still has it's ups and downs but I deal with that a lot better now. I know where I'm at and I wouldn't wanna be anywhere else right now. How much more could I enjoy myself? I don't know. What could make it better? I have an idea.. I'm actually having a good time with everyday.. nothing and no one can take this away.. not right at least.