you can't waste time over missing something in the 
past. life changes, people grow up and grow apart, 
and you can accept that. yet you still can't stop thinking 
of how good it used to be; afraid you'd never experience 
it again, afraid you've already lived it and already lost it. 

I've decided to incorporate a quote into some of my posts.... most them probably won't have any thing to do with what I'm talking about in the post though... ANYWAYS.

I've realize recently that I have a lot of baggage... but who doesn't? Theres a lot about me that a carry around with me but I try not to show that when I'm with people. And for the most part I believe I do succeed with that. Some people probably think I'm crazy but I'm really not... I just have an opened mind with a lot of thought going through it. I wanna have fun but not always with the same people or same group of people at least. I mean you gotta mix it up every once and a while and I hate when people don't understand that. I mean going out and having fun is always good but staying home and not spending money can be just as great.. I have no idea how I even got on this topic. But where else can I go with this... I want it to be summer again.. go to the beach and just relax.. its the only place I can really not care about anything. I have this dream to graduate with a degree in photography from where ever and then get a house by a beach... somewhere nice and warm, in a nice little town and start a photography business there. its really far fetched for me but.. I'm allowed to dream.

this entry has been completely pointless