I haven't been writing much lately... its not that I don't have time or that I don't want to.. its because I don't need to, which for me is a great thing. Don't get me wrong I love writing its one of my favorite things to do because it helps me escape from how bad I can feel sometimes. But if I'm feeling good... I don't need to write. I use to believe it would bother me if i lost connection with certain people that were in my life and it should.... but realizing recently that just that had happened and most the people who completely changed me nearly two and a half years ago.. really aren't there. I mean sure they'll show up in my life when ever its convenient for them... other than that.. I won't see them and I won't hear from them. And thats one thing that I really don't mind anymore. I'm not gonna dwell on things that I have absolutely no control over anymore.. it's a complete waste of my energy. I have other things to worry about.. more important things going on in my life. And I believe that I know exactly what I want and where I'm going at this very moment. I'd rather that didn't change now. I'm not going to let other people drag me down anymore.. I'm not going to allow me to feel bad for no reason and when I do get dragged down, it'll be for good reason... it'll mean whatever it was actually mean't something to me. This is it. I'm fine now. And I never plan on going back. Sure they'll be those day where I feel just like I use to but they won't last long. It'll only be momentarily and then I'll pick myself up again. But then again we all need a little help from our friends... the one that are going to stick around. So we have to embrace those people because they know when they're needed and it makes me love them more ♥