And here we go again. Everything is going south. I guess everything thats good has to come to an end.... I'm starting to feel like I use to. Alone. Torn. I really doesn't feel good. And I don't think I can fight it anymore... I don't think I can avoid it. I'm just gonna have to except the fact that apparently... happy only come sort term to me. I just want someone to prove me wrong. I'm scared I guess. I'm scared that one day.. I'll fall so deeply into this hole that one day I'll just completely lose myself. I don't want that to happen... I'm trying.. I really am.. I've been trying my best to keep myself on track but lately I've found myself completely derailed... I'm not sure what I've done wrong... and this time I have no idea if I can ever find myself back if I end up falling again. Not only has this week been completely horrible.. I have nothing to look forward to in the coming days... I don't know where I'm going and I don't know how I'll end up.. I hate this feeling.