Fuck all your stupid lies. All your bullshit.... everyday I sit there and wonder what the fuck we did to make you make you think that you could do this. That you actually had the right to lie. All the sudden you're this different person.. and you couldn't care less about the people who use to help you the most. I hope you like those drinks.. i hope you like all the things you won't remember... with all the friends that won't give a shit about you in a matter of months. I hope you enjoy telling lies to the people who would've never done the same. I will never make the make the mistake again of convince myself you've finally realized how much you've changed... because the reality of it is... that you probably won't realize it until its too late. And then there will be nothing you can do about it. And I'll never feel bad. I don't feel bad for you now and I never will again. It hurts like hell now though.. because alls I feel like now is that you used me. I hope your year comes crashing down. And no ones there to catch you.
I'm so fucking confused right now.. its not even funny. I mean I realized today how long I've really liked someone.... and I don't know what to do about it now... Its so weird. I mean.... I don't know... Its like a 4 year span... and I'm really not good with this stuff... I've never been good at it. Everything with me was always... and always is by chance. I wanna make things work for me. I want this because.. I almost always have and... it'll be a good thing for me... i just know it.. i just have a feeling in my gut that this could work out and it will be the best thing ever. I mean I'm happy even when this kid doesn't even try to make me happy.. he doesnt even need to try. And thats just a crazy feeling. He'll make me laugh on a daily basis and like I know it could happen but.... everything is so fricken confusing right now. I know what I want... but I don't know what to do about it.
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i hate it too, why is it so hard?? like i think i like this girl, but i am not sure and idk what to do about it >.> i dont even think this girl knows who i am, but i want to get to know her and try to see if i like her or not. This is annoying lol
trust me. i know all about it
any advice about what should i do?
what i should do *
try hanging out with her and getting to know her a little better and then see where it goes from there. You never know. Start talking to her more and maybe things will workout for the best
thats the thing tho, i never talked to her and hanged out with her. i just think i like her
well you gotta chance something. sort out your feelings. find out if you really like her.. or you're just gonna keep wondering..... and that can eat you up inside
i will try to, thank you =]. Do you take all of those pictures btw?
no those i get off websites. i do take pictures though. http://www.flickr.com/photos/myworldalltogether/
oh, you should post some of them up =] and i hope your blogs get happier and better, you really shouldn't waste any more tears. if you need to talk, i am here-ish, through comments =]
yea. i might start using them. they just wouldn't make much sense with my post though. and thank you so much
i like to take pictures, but i am not that good >.<. whenever i go running or for walks and i see something good i wish i had my camera
its not that hard to take a good picture. any picture can be considered good. you just gotta capture life at the right moment
I guess, but the only camera that i had at the time was from my phone, and i had a bad phone =[. i am sure you have talent, so you start posting your pictures =].
well i have them on flickr so people can see them there too
you should talk about them tho. i am sure you are happy about them and you express yourself with them. now thats something not to cry about. i started reading some of your old blogs and it hurt me that you cried so much in the past. just try to see the world in a different way and push away what depresses you. so, i encourage you to take more pictures =]
i'm trying my best trust me. its just a lot of things get to me.. thats all. and i can never understand why i deserve half the shit that happens to me. ya know?
i understand. And you dont deserve it, so why waste your time worrying about it?
i try to wear my heart on my sleeve.. for everyone who walks into my life.. when ever it is they need me. soo when people pretty much screw me over.. it just kills me.
I AM LIKE THAT TOO. 2 b honest i was there for my gf whenever she needed me, but she broke up with me when i needed her the most just because she liked someone else >.>. but thats past. we are trying to be friends now and i wish she could learn to be here for me, but she hasnt yet. but i guess that is the only way you can know people, and know who truly are your friends.
pretty much. it really really sucks though
it does indeed
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