I haven't done this in a while... I haven't found the time or will to want to do it at all for a while.... what can I say... another school year over and the last high school year just around the corner.... junior year... crashed and burned in the end and the summer that started off half way decent blew up out of no where. Although... I think it was probably half good. You just need a break from someone that you have just completely disagreed with most of the year or I've felt like completely just didn't care about me this year at all. I'm not saying that I'm perfect or that I haven't made my fair share of mistakes this year because trust me.. I know I have. And  feel bad about some of the things I said to you because I know they were pretty messed up but its honestly pretty much everything I've been holding in all year. It had to get out eventually. And I feel bad about how alone you must feel right now... like every single person hates you and you've got no one. Although you probably don't care at this point even if we aren't on the best of terms right now... I'm still here for you. I don't hate you. I was mad at you.. I'm not gonna lie.. I was pissed.... you made me feel horrible... saying everything was my fault... when you never even let me talk you never even let me say what I wanted to say... you're mind was made up.. what you thought was what you thought and nothing could change it. So I gave up and gave in and decided that arguing was no longer worth it because what was I seriously going to do? I just think the whole situation is completely horrible and blown up to a point where its just unnecessary. I mean yes I was pissed but I would never go as far as the the some people did in this. never. ever. Seeing that is honestly half the reason I'm so after to say whats on my mind to people most of the time because I know how people can ruin peoples entires life.. I've seen people do it. Its just not right. And whether you believe it or not.. whatever we are to each other... no matter what happens.... I still care and to an extent... I'm still completely and utterly there for you no matter what and I'll stick up for you.. I plan to.. as long as its justified for me to do so... because no matter what you were a huge part of my life and because of that I'm still gonna be there for you. I'm done with all this crap. This bullshit drama. Its out of my system. And its staying out because there's no need for it. Life's to short and so is the rest of high school.